Trigger Warning: Suicidal Ideation In August of 2019, I wanted to die. I just couldn’t go on anymore. I locked myself in the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror. Curious about what my parents would find in the morning. Curious about the conversation they’d have with my sisters and brother. Curious about how… Continue reading I saw a victory
Tag: Faith
my issue with manifestation
Happy New Year! Can you believe we are officially 3 years out from 2020? I feel like 2020 is now my litmus test for how chaotic something was or is. So I'm going to dive right in because this is a topic I've been thinking about since the spring of 2021. I personally believe you… Continue reading my issue with manifestation
is Egypt still in you?
So I have this thing that I do and before I share it, yes I know it’s not a good thing at all. So if a situation comes up where I have an opportunity to sin, I’ll tell God “oh this is the last time” and just … sin. And frankly it’s a double whammy… Continue reading is Egypt still in you?
Cycles
See, the devil, he learns from your mistakes ... even if you dont.Cycles - Jonathan McReynolds The first time I heard this song, my mind was blown. Not just by the artistry of the lyrics but by the way it grabbed my bleeding heart and tightened its grip until I couldn't take it. Apparently, the… Continue reading Cycles
clearing out the house
Like most of my posts, I’m admitting a lot of things. This is actually one of the hardest posts I've written in a while because I'm purging some deeply internalized things. I recently found out that another friend is moving into a stage of life that I so desperately desire. I'm actually so happy for… Continue reading clearing out the house
like a child
I love kids. I mean, I love kids. My goal in life is to be a stay-at-home wife and mother who manages her successful online business. If you know anything about kids, especially toddlers, you know that silence is not golden. Silence usually means that they are doing something they shouldn't be doing. There are… Continue reading like a child
transparency time Tuesday
It probably has everything to do with the way I grew up, but I feel like I am a bother to literally everyone. As I age, I move further away from the unkind words and actions of bullies and family, but the pain that birthed hesitation never left. I am genuinely fearful, at all times,… Continue reading transparency time Tuesday
why I’m done dating for the time being
A few weeks ago I got dumped (for the second time in a year). You know what makes it worse? We were never official. He was just a man that I really liked and we slept together enough times for me to confuse lust with feelings deeper than like. Today we had a long conversation… Continue reading why I’m done dating for the time being
an open letter to Jonny and Mali
Dear Jonny and Mali, I can’t thank y’all enough for using your platform to push accurate information about the COVID-19 vaccine. As the live stream continued, y’all shared your own experiences about your hesitancy to get the vaccine, the feeling of standing in line and being oddly comforted by the amount of people you saw,… Continue reading an open letter to Jonny and Mali
But God
I have this habit of stopping myself before the word but is used in a sentence. I haven't always done this. After a particularly nasty argument with my older sister last year, we sat down to talk. We spoke for about three to four hours and cleared the air. I apologized to her because I… Continue reading But God
Faithfully Resilient 